Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Surgery . . . Dratz!


RIP – The old me.

 

7 ½ hours. 

 

Seven and a half hours on an operating table. 

 

2005.  June.  Miserable, disgusted with myself, angry at so many areas of my life that suffered as a result of my obesity.  The beginning of the end of that life began . . . June 2005.

 

Tri-it-on triathlon was the first.  I began that race in the pool at about 7:30am.  Vulnerable, afraid, and embarrassed by my weight and looks, I stood in line wishing I could blend in until I entered the water.  I weighed 452 pounds when I began training for this race and weighed about 425 pounds on this day.

 

Three and a half years, more than 50 races including mostly triathlons, but also run races and this year a cycling time trial race, I have come to the end of that former me.

 

I am not exactly where I wanted to be on this day, but I am within 20 lbs of it.  I weigh in today at 249 lbs.  I’ve lost more than 200 lbs since I began, but what I have truly gained is the new me. 

 

Many doubted and many more who supported . . . BOTH motivated.

 

I meet people on a regular basis who say they follow this blog and others who tell me of a friend who uses my experiences through this blog.  Being fat sucks and is no fun.  I know there are times where you lose hope and give up or in to your cravings and dependency on food.  Fact is this – I STILL go to food for comfort – I have chosen healthier food and less of it.  There are also times that I have completely fallen off the wagon.  Once you realize you’ve fallen . . . Get back on.  No matter how bad you’ve fallen, ALL IS NOT LOST!!  Just get back on.

 

I am still hard on myself and intimidated in public – especially races, but it is better and I get better with “me” everyday.

 

You Can Do It!  I will help in anyway I can.  I try and return every email sent to me within a reasonable time and I enjoy hearing your stories and your daily obstacles.  But, what I know is – You Can Do It!

 

The old me was a good kind person with VERY low self esteem – This newer me is getting over it!

 

Then there is today . . .

 

Wednesday December 3, 2008 – 08:00 hours

 

I will be under the knife with a highly qualified surgeon who will be performing an upper body lift where he will remove about 15 to 20 pounds of loose skin that has become a mental and physical nuisance. 

 

I am afraid and excited at the same time.

 

That is not the exciting news. 

 

The exciting news is . . . As a result of this surgery I will be able to enjoy a healthy, active, fun life with my NEW BABY!!

 

Amanda is 9 weeks preggo!

 

We are so very happy and I am so very concerned about being a good father.  I have decided to teach my child what not to do through via my experiences!!!!!

 

Please pray for me tomorrow and I will post on Friday – If I am coherent – and let you know how I am doing.

 

Then we will begin the next chapter!

 

 

7 comments:

Tater said...

CONGRATS!!! On everything! Baby, weight loss, surgery ... and most of all being such an inspiration! I am so thankful to have met you. Am so thankful Denise dragged me to watch the Yam City tri 2 years ago so I could see what I was getting into before I did my first tri. I saw you go out on the run. You were projectil vomiting. I looked at D and said "and this is what you want me to do?!?" LOL But you kept going ... and puked again ... and kept going. And something inside me said "if he can do THAT then I can at least try it"! And so I did, and I am still trying ... and falling .... and pushing on ... and trying. The best image I have of that day watching you do the Yam City is of all the skinny fast ones coming back on the run having to leap over puddles of vomit ROFL. The looks on their faces was priceless!

You and Amanda are going to be such wonderful parents! Way to GEAUX! I will be thinking of you and sending good wishes for a quick and complete recovery!

Hugs! Beth "poopyliz/tater"

Tri-ing Fat Man said...

Thanks Beth,

I would love to say I remember that specific up-chuck, but alas, there were so many!!!!

You are really kicking azz girlie. You have come a long way. I remember when this all first began. IT WAS SO SLOW!!!! Progress seemed to take forever!

Then it started to land slide.

You will get there.

See you in a few weeks!

Chris

Anonymous said...

I am so proud of you Chris. I am blessed to know you. I will be sending tons of positive energy. Peace & love, joie

Anonymous said...

Gratz on the bambino and more power to ya on the surgery today :)

Look forward to seeing you two (three) when you get back :)

Matt

Anonymous said...

CB,

My admiration for you has never ceased on what you have set out to accomplish.
I hope and ask that you continue to be the inspiration to the situation.
Good luck with T1 to T2 (Husband to Daddy). This ought to be fun to watch come to fruition!!!!

Thedge

Anonymous said...

Hope it all went well today, we were certainly thinking of you! I hope it wasn't too much strain on Amanda as we need her to take care of herself too!

We'll stay tuned for update when either of you a chance to pass on the news.....

Kath & Michael

krissy said...

Chris, I'm a friend of Amanda's from high school. Congratulations on all your success and I've said a prayer for your recovery.
:-) Very inspirational story!
~Krissy Livingston